gratitudes among the chaos that is life

cece's gratitude

Lately I have been an emotional shambles, toggling between joy and grief, serenity and anxiety, anger and acceptance. Tears flow as easily as smiles, often simultaneously.

I am walking through this human life a quivering bundle of emotions, and am grateful for all of it. I’m celebrating the basketful of sadness and celebration I clutch, because it means I am alive. I laugh and cry and hurt and love. This is fierce living even though I can’t explain any of it.

Much of life is a bewilderment, yet we still gasp for air amid the smoke. Is this faith? Accepting what can’t be rationalized or Googled? Perhaps. Or are we trust falling? Hurtling through the cosmos, believing we will make it? Maybe.

What I do know is the world is infinite, a beautiful, messy, terrifying, breathtaking miracle, and I am grateful for every second I walk among the rubble of humanness. I choose to live, really live with its foibles and scars and gifts.

This is life. This is love.

Thanksgiving gratitudes:

my glorious friends

my boisterous, messy, fabulous family

coffee

the early morning quiet

my pile of books, both read and still to be read

these rambling words of mine

oh, and this cat, our semi-feral rescue cat that has really rescued us

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Thanksgiving song:

Crowded Table by The Highwomen

“I can be your streetlight

showing you the way home

you can hold my hand 

when you need to let go”

Music and lyrics by Lori McKenna, Natalie Hemby, and Brandi Carlile